Red and Blue Baby


(Svart Records, 2017)

 

    1. Come to rest

    Come to rest, my wayward, fleeing heart
    This is best, or you’ll be ripped apart
    It’s a test we’re never gonna pass
    You are not that tough

    The absolute pleasure in misery
    The offensive smell of my morning suit
    Mourning over the truth, the master of the game
    Searching for someone to play

    You will fuck it up

    It’s just a reflection, you’re knowingly the prey
    There’s no one else to blame, but in your mind you frame
    It like it was a date
    The world is so untamed

    An ocean of emotion
    Will drown me if unfrozen
    Constant motion
    Ebb and flow
    Constellations
    Guide me home

    Come to rest, my wayward fleeing heart
    Back in my chest you have a place to hide
    Build a nest way out of people’s sight
    You don’t have to fight

     

    2. I can’t be buried

    I can’t be buried in that cemetary
    Do you wanna know why?
    ‘Cos I’m not lifeless yet
    No I’m very much alive

    But some day I will be though
    And hearing me say that
    Will creep the bejeebs out of my children
    And their children if I ever get to meet them

    Thought I’d lost my sense of humour
    But these jokes, these dumbass jokes
    Just keep on coming out
    Like verbal, projectile vomit

    “Can I get a glass of water”, asked the pony
    “I’m a little hoarse you see”
    But the floor manager fainted
    For he had never in his life heard anyone ask for any beverage
    Without saying please

    As he fell unconscious to the floor
    He knocked down a flower vase, a tiny maze,
    A cook who was about to glaze his boss
    For not giving him a well deserved kiss
    Even though he had a “kiss the cook” -apron on

    People are talking, so what?
    Take my hand, take your pants off
    We’ll give them something to talk about
    Let’s you&me ditch this god-forsaken town

     

    3. Karaoke Kid

    I’m the karaoke kid and I was about to
    but the drunken business men just had to show me how to
    crowd a queue

    Two hours pass next is Mike
    no one comes so I grab the mic
    The lyrics were

    “This city is so sad
    once I’m dead everyone’s just glad
    I had a friend but he stole my wife
    king alcohol please save my life”

    Who likes this crap?
    Whining in a gift wrap
    the melody was kinda catchy
    tender in a way

     

    4. Seasimularo

    I swam across the big blue sea
    Have to breathe can’t go too deep
    The only thing my eyes can see
    Is the surface calm and me

    Though I can never see it all
    Below me there is quite a fall
    My friends plant, rock or animal
    And all my foes uncountable

    It’s a whale the size of a sea
    There’s nothing else to feel
    Soft sinking skin of his
    Tells you how to surrender

    It’s a whale the size of a sea
    There’s nothing more to feel
    Softly takes over me
    Like sleep, I’m ready to surrender

    In addition there is a space
    Deepest depths of dark embrace
    I try to swim at my own pace
    But the fear makes this a race

    I focus on the pretty things
    Fish, coral, the little things
    Dolphin laughs, the whale sings
    But the sea has a lot more offerings

    I can search the surface high
    Forever down the bottom low
    There is always more than I can know
    There is always more

     

    5. Ode to Natalie

    You are so unbelievable
    Astonishing, there are no words
    It’s understating to say wonderful
    Would you please
    Be with me
    Marry me
    Kiss me, keep me, kill me

    She wants you to want her,
    She wants you to want her
    But she’ll never ever be yours
    She’ll never ever be yours
    They want you to want her,
    They want you to want her
    But she’ll never ever be yours
    She’ll never ever be mine

    Knowing you crushes me
    It hurts just to know you exist
    There’s nothing to compare you to
    You are the reason for the universe
    For the stars and the moon and the sun and the earth
    Would you be
    Inside of me
    Be one with me

    I don’t think you would ever talk to me
    No one should be allowed to touch you
    Your presence is overwhelming, it’s pressure

    She’ll never truly be mine

     

    6. Aquarium Night

    Let me come closer
    Aquarium night
    Am I ridiculously thinking, acting, feeling?

    Three in the morning
    Aquarium light
    Is it too late for me to say this?
    Kinda is

    I want to come to you sleep with you tonight
    Not giving a shit that you have a wife

    Red and blue and all the other colors are in you
    Disappointment and love and all the other feelings are in you
    The earth and the moon and the rest of the universe is in you
    Disappointment and love and all the other feelings are in you

    I can only see
    Aquarium life
    And you’re the only thing on my mind
    It’s got to be a sign

    World has shrunk into
    Aquarium night
    I can’t afford to let the stress get to me

    I would never let you go without a fight
    Don’t care if I don’t or if I do you right
    I want to come to you sleep with you tonight
    Not giving a shit that you have a wife

     

    7. Yours

    There was a crowd
    I had a doubt
    There’s no way out
    It was so loud
    I had to shout
    Then we made out

    Drink your beer do not spill it on me
    I have this fear don’t think we will make it
    You kissed a girl and I wanted to hit
    Her but you said it meant no thing

    There was a show
    I wanted home
    You wouldn’t go

    I kicked a car and it started howling
    I felt so sick the noise so taunting

    Want you to know
    That I’m your ho
    So don’t let go
    Because I am

    Yours
    I’m yours I’m

    Now there’s no doubt
    There is a cloud
    On getting out
    Drinks all around
    You start to pout
    I’m acting out

    Let’s cut the chase I don’t think you want me
    I have this fear I’m sure I’ll fuck it

    Want you to know
    I’m still your ho
    So don’t let go
    Because I am

    Could you please please be mine too
    Could you please just say I’m yours
    You know that I’ll always follow
    You and I will always be

     

    8. Don’t tell me how it is

    Listen, don’t tell me how it is
    I don’t care, I’m just getting above you

    You always gotta get the last word in
    You always gotta have your say and run things
    I never see you like you used to be
    I never get to say how much I miss you

    Just keep tuning your piano
    Change the strings on your guitar
    But pretty soon they’ll be waiting in the parking lot
    Though they won’t take me very far

    I know, those are all my empty bottles
    Your dirty underwear

    There’s something you’re not telling me and that’s fine
    There’s something I don’t wanna hear
    I never see you like you used to be
    I never get to say how much I miss you

     

    9. Killer Dolphin

    I got scared of my responsibilities
    didn’t see that its just empty without
    now it feels like the nightmare I once saw
    the killer dolphin was offing me with his saw

    But now I know your name
    You’re nothing now with your fame
    I erase your name
    You can’t do a thing I’ve called your game

    now I know your name
    You’re nothing now with your fame
    I erase your name
    You can’t do a thingyoure so lame

    Happy little dolphin
    was playing in the sea right in front of me
    he greeted me said “hi”
    and tickled with his saw such a cute little thing

    But he broke my skin and veins
    and bones even before I stopped laughing
    and then I realized that the dolphin was not nice at all

    I woke up early I can’t believe
    nothing but torture to think
    How close you were killer dolfin
    It was not a relief it was you
    my eyes wide open I refuse to believe
    stuff you did don’t exist
    I close my eyes let the water
    carry me back to my slumber

    Now I see another
    but this time I know how to stay away from
    all those little assholes
    I’d rather keep these new dream bones intact

     

    10. Hello my friend

    Hello my friend, the end
    Who did you fall in love with?
    I would have wanted to know

    Hello my friend, the end
    One year in jail or a stupid tattoo in your face?
    I would have wanted to know

    Hello my friend, the end
    Did you ever make a song, what was it about?
    I would have wanted to know

    Hello my friend, the end
    What would you do if there was a bear against you?
    I would have wanted to know

    Hello my friend, the end
    Do you have someone there to hold you?
    I would have wanted to know

    Hello my friend, the end
    I would have wanted to know

     

    11. Never get up

    I look like a junkie but I’m feeling fine
    Can no longer say the name of my home town
    Surprised they let me in with these eyes of mine
    What if I actually was high?

    I look like a nightmare truth be told
    If I was a child I think I’d cry
    Just relax and let in the cold cold cold
    Nothing to do but freeze of fry

    Bird of business
    Wearing his tie
    Didn’t get much sleep and I’m thinking I I I
    Will never get up
    Never ever get up

     

    12. I’ll be around

    I’ll be around
    Not honorbound like you are
    More familiar but gone, gone
    I’ll be around

    Switching lanes so smoothly
    A hundred miles per hour
    My unwritten words
    Un-uttered goodbyes
    I’ll be around

    That awful sound
    Much softer than you’d think tho
    After all the car weighs a ton, ton
    What an awful sound

    Immediate vicinity
    Hand on your shoulder
    My unwritten words
    Un-uttered goodbyes
    I’ll be around

    I like my little limbo
    Never hang the wet shirts
    My unwritten words
    Un-uttered goodbyes
    I’ll be around